Talking to Yourself

Big Frank has been thinking (OK - look out) about life. Yeah, I know it's way too big a topic for most people - but, Big Frank can handle this - not to worry. So all those people out there - look at them as you pass them day by day, hour by hour, joy by joy, and pain by pain: they are gesturing the same as you are. Look at the people in the cars that you pass - they mirror you: some are singing, some are looking off into the distance - not really even being where they are, and some are so into this commuting thing that they are ready to jump out of their cars and vigorously negotiate such small details as who goes first. "So what?", some say - "What's the big deal?" No big deal - really no big deal whatsoever; just life. And what of that unending interior dialogue that never stops in everyone's head? What's that all about? People talking to themselves without talking - chewing their cuds, running the same old narrative over and over and over again. That's called: "Thinking". Funny - the word has connotations of some kind of task getting taken care of, as if - "What are you doing?" "Oh, I'm thinking things over here." But the random thinking that happens is like wallpaper - it's like the clouds that circle above us day in and day out that are not noticed at all, but ----- there they are! This internal conversation between different parts of yourself - and you actually believe that you - yourself, are unitary, some kind of solitary entity, when, in fact, you are a congregation of voices, a veritable society, . . . well this congregation of cacophony is YOU. This is your life - why not take the time to get to know what is going on? How many people have one - just one transcript of a representative conversation that they have with themselves? What happens when you talk to yourself? What's the topic and who talks to whom - or is it just one voice droing on and on - the boss, as it were? How many people have any idea that there are patterns in these conversations, and that these patterns tell them something revealing about who they are? So . . . take the time to get to know yourself ( yourselves) - and then , you will get to know something extraordinatry about life: you have lots of company there inside yourself, and you have definite preference in things that you talk to yourself about - over and over and over again. What is it? Why is it that and not something else?